I was sharing my faith journey with a new person in my life. I explained how I had been mad at God for a long time. I felt my prayers were not answered, especially when I was praying for what I had been told was God’s Will. I had blamed God for my Rare Disorder, my origins and ultimately setting me up for decisions that did not serve me.
One day, a couple of years ago, I was pacing my room with all of this swarming my head. I stopped just short of wearing down my carpet and gasped. What if I chose this? If Free Will is a gift from The Eternal, then it is an eternal gift. Prior to becoming flesh, I jumped up and down screaming “me, me!” I will do it! I will embody Poland Syndrome, be born to Natty & Diane, be the sister to Natalie and on and on. I was so excited to be a co-creater with the True Creator to bring my message and gifts in me to the world. Then I was born. Ugh! I forgot the enthusiasm, love and had to rediscover my gifts through tremendous pain.
Taking a step back, call God whatever you want: Higher Power, The Universe, Source Energy. It’s up to you to fill in the blank. Whatever you choose, know that you are an extension of the power and energy that created all that existed, our current state of being and that which will manifest in the time to come. You and I are co-creators. The life force within us, for me God, is calling us to embrace this understanding.
This is the understanding of The Light: If each one of us is an extension of The Light, then we are an extension of one another. Each one of us is here because The Light called us and we responded with a “me, me! I will take the job. I will live this life in my gifts, my purpose and most importantly in love.” But then we were born. People, experiences, organized religion told us we were bad, not good enough, not thin enough, not smart enough. We forgot our beauty. We forgot we are co-creaters in this beautiful world that has been draped in darkness. We forgot to be the light for The Light.
We listen to sermons and parents and bosses and friends who say we have done wrong, and that we have to fix our “shortcomings.” We have turned a deaf ear to our own internal voice, the quiet whisper from The Light within who loves us and wants us to be not just complacent, but thrilled to be part of something amazing: The continued evolution of the universe from the darkness of hate to the light of love. The Source within knows we are perfect. The problem is we do not.
Do I have to fit into the round hole of what the world thinks I “should” be? I prefer to be the square peg who knows my own worth. When I truly embrace my purpose, gifts and worth as those I chose to accept from The Eternal, when I accept that I am connected by The Light Force within me to every other person in existence past, present and future; then I can love unconditionally. It is only then that the black drapes of “less than”, distrust, and hate will be lifted and The Light will shine.
Know your light. Be the light for The Light. Let them know it’s Christmastime. I start today!
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!
Know I love you all!
Wishing you love, balance & peace.
Amore & Baci,
Just Steph
